I thought that having it all was really, truly possible. I thought that being a wife, a mom, and a producer and being content with all three was totally possible. But after doing it for 6 years, I'm slowly starting to realize that, it's really not. At least not for me. It feels like not being able to pay attention to each one of the those jobs at any one given point. It's hard to focus, it's hard to enjoy the moment. I'm constantly thinking about the next thing I have to do. I realized this as I was putting my kids to bed. I'm supposed to be enjoying this one on one moment with my daughter. Cuddling with her, talking to her about her day (which I missed because I was at work), asking about her friends (who I've never met because I'm at work), but I can't enjoy it. Instead I'm rushing through it thinking about emailing my co workers back who are on the Left coast. These moments are so fleeting, yet I just don't have the capacity to enjoy it. There's no time left for savoring these them, and theres really nothing I can do to change it. Is there? I know people say to live in the moment, and be more present, but how do you do that when you're balancing mom life with work life, and for some reason I added on top of that... food blogger life? It's three separate lives pulled into one person. Granted I'm lucky to have the ability to multitask pretty well (it's the only way I can get everything done) but it also has me thinking of the next thing on my list constantly. And one of those things is baking the next tasty treat for this blog. It's both a win and lose, I suppose.